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LESSON-1

Always do what your heart tells you.       I swear to fucking god I knew it; I knew he was perfect. I just felt it in my bones, you know the way he smiled, the way he looked so innocent and how angelic his aura felt. He was the guy I've dreamt about my entire childhood, no not any actor or prince charming I just wanted to be his girl, I guess. I don’t know I was so obsessed about him and him alone that I never pictured us together or like it felt so surreal to even think about that. I remember how I enjoyed looking at his face, I felt so charmed when he didn’t notice me admiring his face, and then when he did, I couldn’t look into his eyes fearing he would magically know the number of butterflies I got. No, it wasn’t awkward or anything back then but yeah it is awkward for me now after what seems like a lifetime ago. I liked him from the time I got the senses to notice everybody in the class. Yeah, I’m talking about when I was around 5 or 6 years old. I didn’t rea...
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QUARANTEENING

INTRODUCTION.         This blog contains a series of stories that I’ve tried to bury deep inside me in order to not think about it ever again. There exist hundreds of these kind of stories in my life like anyone else, but few of them are too strong to just be kept inside, locked in silence forever. I get these weird thoughts about regrets and how I should have responded back to certain situations, how I should have reacted or what I should have done instead, I get these flashbacks too often even though I’ve completely let them go and forgiven all of it and myself. The only valid solution to this was to write them down, pouring myself out on pages. But I’ve been doing that for 5 years now and it helped me temporarily but then I would still fall a victim to my mind and heart. My heart has a good memory of exactly how it felt years ago even if I have forgotten few parts of the incident. The lessons I learnt are precious and awakening. That’s the reason I don’t ...
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